CONFUSED

It's kinda hard to tell the difference between love or friendship.....

Almost 3 years had past but I'm still inlove with him... yeah the same guy who made my world upside down, the same guy who make me cry and laugh at the same time.... the difference now is that I make him believe that I already move on... that I am no longer in love with him... but the truth is I still do love him.... crazy me right? now every-time I see him I don't know what to say..... and the worst part is that everytime I visit his FaceBook acct. and read his post I always ended up broken... dunno why I still acting this way.... I drown myself to my KPOP addiction but there are times that I still sneak out to view his profile.... *bitter* last 2009 on christmas vacation I thought not seeing him or even texting him will make me move on... I let myself believe that I really do move on.... after that vacation I can face him, we are good friends still but It all changes again july 2010..... when I often see him flirting with other girl.... and he never talk to me... yeah we see each other almost everyday but even a simple hello is nothing to found.... he really changed he talks or approaches me/us whenever he needs something *that's how unfair my life is* and the next thing I knew???? is that my feelings just HIDE deep in my heart that when he provoke it, that love explodes again.... I'm just confusing myself .... I know he still can't repay the love I have for him... I'm just the hard headed person who believe that maybe someday his head might hit in the hard rock so that he may realize how I still love him..... *emo* waaahhhh I don't want him to look hurt.... 
The lesson I learn?.... Love is not always ending happily.... but I cannot blame it still because I am the person who owns the heart that loves him.... right? 


I know stuff like this is supposed to be kept or just tell with friends but at this time of the day I don't want to bother my friends, and I think making it here in my blog would lessen the bitterness I feel? I guess..... whooooooaahhhh I hope you guys can understand me...