Its Hard...
(its a first time that I felt something for a friend...)
huh..being in love to a friend whose been so close to me for a long time..
I've been keeping it in my heart for a long time before I bursts out my feelings to him..
I don't know what comes in me that I fell in love to that guy!!?? he's not that handsome(yeah I know I'm not pretty^^,) he does not have a body that would make other girls to fantasize him.. but he have that mysterious eyes that can make my knees melt...and just by talking he can stop my world..he is also good at joking and posses a personality that I think every girls looking in a guy..
a good heart, a patience one, a low profile guy, and easy to be with....thats what I think make me fall for him...
He knows everything about my feelings for him...
It happen that night right after I cried because of jealousy..huh..crazy me right..I tell him everything..but the saddest part in that phone call..isa that him saying "Sliptyt Gudnyt I love you....FRIEND!!"hahaha...
now im in the stage of moving on.. and choosing our friendship over my love for him..at least im still close to him and he still consider me as one of his closest friend who he can tell his own secrets..although there are times that I still pain for him especially when his girl friend broke with him...the pain that I felt that time is doubled the pain that he is enduring..hahaizt its really hard being inlove with him..although Im trying my best to hide the pain to him and think its working...haizt I hope my feelings would disappear soon...
..someday I will face him with a telling him that I am over him and I will him with pure friendship..
I know many would say its such a similar story of a grl who fell inlove to her guy friend,,
b4 when I read this kind of story I also thinking that it is some kind of infatuation..but now that it is happening to me it felt so real!!..
